Tuesday, September 25, 2007

The next month...

Well, good news, I did not have to have an MRI, my test results came back in the "ok" range so I started the Clomid and now we are in the wait and see phase of the month. I have taken 2 pregnancy test and they came back negative but I am still clinging to the hope that I took them too early and it will still happen this month. Although I am not very optimistic, I am trying to be but it gets harder every month. I think we have decide to try the Clomid for three months then we are off to the fertility specialist. I just don't think I can keep doing this indefinitely. I would rather go and find out if there is a problem and get started fixing it that to just keep "wasting" cycles. I am trying not to get depressed but it is difficult. When I do get down I feel like I am being a wuss but then I get defensive (to myself!) and say Damn it I just can't help it. This is by far the hardest part of the month and I am not sure why that is, but this is the time that I am saddest and the most depressed. Wow, what a whiny blogger I am!! I will keep everyone updated to any changes!